C2C

Cam to cam, commonly abbreviated to “c2c” is when person a has person b’s chatroom open on their screen, and vice versa. Here’s what you need to know:

The first time someone asked me to go c2c, his response was “wow, you actually did it”. Honestly, I didn’t even view his cam, but he had received the notification that in another tab, I had opened his chatroom, and hadn’t immediately left it. I had it open on my lap top, paying no mind to it but he was unaware of my disinterest, and took gratification in the thought of me watching him.

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For the record though, had he tipped me to do it, I would’ve engaged in his cam. If you’re being paid to go cam to cam, it’s always a good idea to type in their chat room, and comment on how sexy they are (or how small their dick is- I’ve been paid to do that too). For a beginner, 50 tokens for 5 minutes seems to be the going rate. As you become a more watched, and in-demand cam model, your prices rise with your popularity.

This has been a very short blog post, but I thought it was time I added a post to my “Technically Speaking” category. Thanks for the read, and I will see you next week.

Amy

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Straight for Pay

No matter your gender, if you’re a cam model you’ve probably figured out that your clients are primarily male. It’s no secrets that women seem to be less inclined to these websites, which can be tricky if it’s women you’d rather be talking with.

If you’ve ever seen a show of mine, you would think I’m a bisexual with lots of interest in people, no matter how they identify. That was a lie for my audience. In all truth, I’ve only recently taken on the label of bisexual, and throughout the entire time I was on camera, I was exclusively dating women. Honestly, it was fun pretending to be someone else, but it came with its issues.

Even now, I would say that it’s rare for me to want to date a man. I have been, so obviously I’m not gay, but I certainly lean to one side of the spectrum more than the other. Since being with men wasn’t something I was even considering at the time, it was uncomfortable to constantly have men chase me. On camera wasn’t so bad, because it was a genderless bot typing to me as far as I was concerned. Snapchat was really where the problem was. Constantly, boys faces appeared on my phone screen as they told me how sexy, perfect, beautiful I was. Their eyes looked dull as they requested photos of my body. Never mind the occasional surprise dick pic I would receive. It’s funny, really. I had all these boys at my disposal if ever I wanted an interactive experience, yet I ignored them for low-quality lesbian porn.

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The next problem was much harder. I went on plenty of dates, but there was only ever one girl I felt confident enough to tell about this part of my past. She was accepting, embracive even, but it’s no secret that not every reaction would be like hers. Maybe my worry isn’t justified, but I always feared that any girl I would date would not understand a “straight for pay” lifestyle, they would think I wasn’t “gay enough”, or maybe they’d think I only wanted them for male attention. Trying to find a relationship as a cam model felt hard enough as most people look down upon sex workers, but then to add in the extra stress of trying to explain pretending to be into men for cash- well that was hard.

Lastly, it makes you feel like you’re lying. My regulars frequently commented on how “authentic” they believed me to be, yet here I was, pretending to be something I wasn’t. As someone who was already struggling with identity issues, it made things even more confusing for me. I felt guilt, and confusion every time I made up a story about sleeping with a guy because I knew I wanted nothing to do with that. I knew I only wanted to seem available for my male viewers.

No matter your sexual orientation, whether or not you lie about it on screen, you’re valid. I’m not going to lie, being “straight for pay” sucked, but I did it to keep my regulars thinking I was enjoying their unsolicited advances. I didn’t enjoy the discomfort of men flirting with me, the struggles in real life dating, and the fact that I felt I was lying every time I logged in but I did it, and I don’t think that’s something I would change.

Thank you for reading.


Love always,
Amy

Interview: Living With A Cam Model

1. How would you describe living with a cam girl?
Interesting. That’s probably the best word to describe it.

2. What is the funniest story from the experience?
When you were live in the kitchen and I needed water. Oh, or there was the time I had a hook up over, and I heard you on camera.
3. What influences has it had?
I actually considered becoming a cam model myself, something I wouldn’t have thought of otherwise. I thought it was taboo, but learned a lot of people do it and now I’m more comfortable with the idea.
4. Do you view cams?
Yes.
5. Have you ever come across a roommate?
I’ve never seen either of my roommates on the cam site, because of geo-block. Although, I did find someone else from my personal life on a website where his video had been uploaded to. Because it was stolen from the actual cam website he used, it didn’t matter if he had geo-block settings on.
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6. Have you ever appeared online?
My voice did, so I made an alter-ego to go along with it. His name was Zach, and he even had his own twitter (now deactivated).
7. What advice do you have for someone in a similar situation?
It may be weird at first, but eventually you get used to it. Then it gets fun, and your life gets more exciting.
8. What is the main difference between living with a cam model, versus a non-model roommate?
It was more of a “nobody give a fuck” attitude. At times, we were more comfortable seeing each other in our underwear and were more open in the house. The downfall is that you live with a secret
9. Secret?
I thought the entire ordeal was interesting, and exciting so I wanted to tell my friends about my living situation, but because of privacy, safety, and stigma, I didn’t tell anyone about my roommates line of work.
As you read, “Zach’s” twitter is de-activated, so there isn’t anywhere you can find him, but I hope you enjoyed the read none-the-less. Catch me next week with a “Technically Speaking” blog on using Chaturbate settings!
Love always,
Amy